A rare open moment.
I haven't written in this for a while, I suppose because things have been hetic for a while- ok that's a load of bull stuff has been hetic, but you know I feel kind of sad. Not angrey or depressed just sad. Its true what people say that you don't appreciate something until its gone. That thing or some one becomes part of your life, and you forget what its like to be with out them. Well what if person that has gone away has always been in your life?To be technical he's still in my life, just now he's a computer screen or a mechanical voice at the end of a wire. I never thought Id be this sad. Ill forget about it then I think "oh yeah!! Im gunna see him tonight" then I remember Im not going to see him, and I don't know the next time I will. And its like a lurch.
For the record heart ache isn't heart ache its more like gut ache. A pain that is really strange and I don't think Ive had it before, I might of but I was little then and its just a memory now, you can't really tell if you had gut ache. But I still miss her, and think about her a lot- I should write to her but I don't have a clue what to say. What do you say to your only best friend who you haven't seen in ages "oh like Im writing this to say hi and erm hi!!"
I miss him so much.
But things pass, Ive gotten though harder and with out the dark one does not appreciate the light.
Actually this blog entry has thown up a random child hood memory of touching tongues with my female friend out of curiosity and both of us being utterly repulsed. Ah was now that was funny my darhling. This is why Im not openly honest about things I come out with stuff like that.
BOOGIE
posted by Boogie @ 9:23 PM
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